Finally, it was Friday. This week seemed to pass really fast, but it seemed that I have sustained for a really long time at the same time.

Anyway, I only know that Friday was such a encouraging day.

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I have to attend course tonight again. Today was the third night. It was really tiring indeed. 

This morning, I was really tired. A bit dizzy.

Today, I only had 4 lessons, a bit more relaxed. However, since I was too tired, I could only marked half pile of composition during the free time in the afternoon.

At night, I needed to attend PTH course in CUHK. However, I was really reluctant to go. I had to struggle for long before I started my way to CUHK.

When I was going home, I felt heavy. I looked at the sky, and I couldn’t see the moon. I guess she was sleeping deeply at home. I really envy that.

Tonight, there were only a few people on the street. There was even no people in the lobby of my house. The atmosphere was very lonely.

Perhaps, the weather was too cold, and the cold breeze blew away everyone on the street.

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In the West Rail station, Christmas decoration was put up, and Christmas songs were also broadcasted. All these reminded me that Christmas is coming, and a year will end soon.

This morning, I met my partner last year in the school gate.

When she saw me with a thin shirt, she asked me whether I was warm enough.

Then she asked me with care whether I had my breakfast or not. And she even told me to eat more, as she thought I was too skinny.

The way she talked to me was just like my Mum. Especially when she mentioned that I was too skinny, she sounded so gentle, tender and protective, which was just like my Mum.

In fact, we didn’t work together this year, but she still cares and loves me like a daughter of hers. She really touched me very much.

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I left school very late again.

My student said she saw me in dream last night. And I thanked her with smile.

And I thought, didn’t I think of my students when I was dreaming last night? In fact, for the whole night, I was just halfly asleep. In my mind, I kept thinking about students which I need to teach today.

So, I didn’t have a good sleep last night. I wonder, if my students know about this, will they also thank me with their smile?

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I left school at 6:15 pm today, at that time, the sky was dark already.

The weekend finished so fast. Tomorrow, I have to work again. However, I haven’t marked any assignments which I brought home. Besides, I haven’t prepared all the things that I have to teach this week.

Since I have so many things which is undone, I guess I must be extremely busy again in this week.

Once I think about Sunday will end soon, once I think about the heavy workload this week, once I think about I have to attend course on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday night, once I think about I even need to work on Saturday this week, I couldn’t help to be depressed.

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Too depressed, so I don’t want to speak at all tonight.

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I haven’t eaten yoghurt for a very long time. So, when I ate it today, I thought it tasted especially good.

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Everyone in my family want to lose weight. I thought it is very funny.

People always tell me the world is dark, all men are deceitful.

In fact, I understand this truth, but I still believe, there is still some goodness in this world.

The school sent me to attend a course today, so I didn’t need to go to school today. That’s wonderful.

I treated attending course as a holiday, so it was a happy thing.

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This morning, the bus was really crowded, and I couldn’t get any seat. So, I had to stand for the whole bus ride.

However, I really enjoyed this bus ride today.

Since I couldn’t sit down, I couldn’t sleep, so I took out a book and read. I think I haven’t read a book seriously for a long time.

Reading is an enjoyable thing. That’s because when you read, it seems every thing around disappeared, and there is only you and the author enjoy the world of the book, and taste every words in the book.

This is a great enjoyment.

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I read some words from the book that really touched my heart. And I tried to translate it.

“The so-called parents and children relationship, means that you can only watch the children walk farther and farther away in your whole life.

You stand at the end of the street, you watch your children’s back disappeared gradually at the other end of the street. And your children’s back told you silently that don’t chase after them.”

At the end, it said “don’t chase after them.” These words hit right through my heart as if a thorn. These simple words deeply showed how heart breaking for the parents to watch us children going farther and farther away from them.

After reading these words, I wanted to give a reply.

“Yes, though I am really walking farther, I want to tell you that you don’t need to chase after me as I would come back.

That’s because the so-called parent and children relationship means that there is always a thread linking us together in our whole lives. This thread can never be cut of even we went to the ends of the earth. This thread is called blood ties. This is a tie which no one can break.”

Since most of the new teachers have difficulty in classroom management, the discipline head teacher suggested all teachers who has not more than three years teaching experience had to observe one of his lessons in order to learn some classroom management skills.

And today, it was my turn to observe his lesson. However, after observing his lesson, I think it didn’t help at all.

He is the discipline head teacher, he is different from other teachers. Once he stand in front of the students, all the students will obey and behave well even he didn’t say anything.

So, in his lesson, he didn’t use any classroom management skills, but all the students lined up before they entred the classroom, and they sat on their own seats and be extremely quiet.

If the students behaved so good all the time, then I don’t think any new teachers would have problem on classroom management. However, the same class of students are totally different in our lessons. They scream, throw things, run everywhere, fight, or sleep, they do all the bad things. So, what should we do when we face such a situation?

When I observe the lesson of discipline head teacher, I think I could only see his power, but not any classroom management skills.

However, it’s too bad that we could never have such power.

Today was day 4, which is my most free day. I only need to teach the first 4 lessons. So, finally, I could sit in front of my desk, and mark paper crazily.

Two piles of worksheets, two piles of test paper, were marked extremely fast by me. That’s quite good.

However, there are still alot which haven’t been marked yet.

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My desk is more and more messy now, even myself can’t tolerate it.